If you want to get committed to a healthier lifestyle, mentally and physically , it is not somthing you can just decide, and watch happen. You must identify with some aspect of your program in order to stick with it. How can you expect to “get healthy and feel confident” if you constantly self doubt, and talk down to yourself.
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You help, love, and encourage your friend, your toddler, you your freakin dog! So why in the hell don’t we help, love, and enourage ourselves? We are so hell bent on self hate and negativity we forget to appreciate, thank, love, help and ENCOURAGE ourselves.

Instead of accepting our flaws or short comings we tend to focus soley on fixing them, always in the process , never fixed, never perfect, never enough. Society fuels the fire often by setting you up for failure, telling you you're broken and then selling you shitty remedies that bandade the problem and mask the truth.

it is your job to realize your worth, be HONEST with yourself and recognize that being who you are, and celebrating it, is not a bad thing. The more you show your body love and appreciate it, the more it will love you back and that is when you’ll start not just seeing, but feeling results.

I promised I would give a break down, for those of you who are interested, in how the marathon I ran on 10/15/17 went. Over all I'd have to say I wouldn't do this particular race again, but it wasn't a total loss either!

The day of, I was all smiles, mostly in hopes if i looked happy my body would be tricked into thinking I was in fact entering into a happy positive situation. A few days before the race I woke with a cold, not a little cold, a BIG cold, like a whopper of a cold. I was exhausted, dizzy, achy, my head hurt, and there was a lot of snot. Aside from this training had gone relatively well and I just hoped I could muster up the strength to get through this thing!

The morning of the race I had everything prepped like I always do, the water bottles I run with that my dog had chewed through just the week before had already been replaced... I had purchased extra gels and Gatorade, and over all my cold was feeling rather mild at the time. No complaints.

Not even 10 minutes into the race I could feel my heart rate flying, I knew i was going a little faster than originally planned but i wasn't sure why my heart rate was literally thumping through my chest (in the end i chalked it up to my cold.) By the time we reached the peace bridge, approaching mile 5 I was lagging behind my running partners, as we approached the water the wind picked up... a lot... and I knew at that point plan A was NOT happening, time for plan B.

Side note: Always have a plan A, B and C
A: Sub 5 hours
B: Just Finish the race feeling "good"
C: Don't die

I ended up alone, and wind blown for the rest of the race, if it weren't for my husband at mile 13 basically forcing me to continue on I probably would have called it quits. My mind quit before my body even had the chance too. After Dan's mini pep talk I decided to muster up another 2 miles, and another, and another. Next thing you know I passed the 20 mile marker. As the miles passed they felt slow but steady, I stopped frequently to stretched to give myself little "mental breaks."

If it weren't for the little hiccup around mile 22 and 24 water stops I think could have finished a little stronger. Unfortunately they were out of water... yes a water stop had no water, I opted to take their electrolyte beverage which was basically dirty water and it gave me a cramp which i basically held onto until the final mile.

Once I hit a water stop that actually had water in it i stopped to refill my bottle and drink, at this point I picked up a friend, a 65-69 year old guy who was about as bad ass as they get. He asked if he could walk with me while i drank, he told me about his other marathons and his favorite courses, next thing i know there is less than a mile to go!!! I'm still not sure how much time i spent on that little walk but i don't regret it one bit. It brought perspective back into the race, it helped calm my mind and refocus my attention on something other than the clock.

I finally picked my pace up and came around the corner to see my husband and family cheering me on, it was such an AMAZING feeling to be done, but just as amazing to have done it. Marathons are soooo much mental. It's like being alone with your thoughts for hours but needing to be able to focuse on what you're doing, which is perfect, it's like having the TV on in the background, it's there, it's happening but you aren't emotionally invested in the program. Running allows you to release those pent up, lost, unrecognizable feeling/thoughts/emotions without getting sucked into the sometimes draining process of fishing through them all.

I finished this marathon 10x stronger and more confident than my first one and for that, I say it was a win!

Here's a little update for everyone. My marathon is in about 3 weeks. This fast Sunday I ran 20 miles, last Sunday I ran 18 miles. To say it nicely, the 18 was one of the most painful runs I've ever done (and I've ran a marathon before!) I felt crampy, my legs were heavy, my body was literally revolting at the thought of moving another inch let alone a mile. I'd say by mile 9 my body already shut down, it was done, i was tired, weak, dizzy, nauseous. It was literally just as shitty was it sounds... so then why the hell was my 20 mile run the most graceful, steady, fun, casual run of my life (more or less of course.) PREP. I completely 360'd my run prep routine with the advice from my amazing brother @nickbrodnicki who thank god also happens to be an endurance athlete and coach! Below is a little summary of my prep which I will be using (parts that are possible) for the marathon.

You've got good pre run tips or tricks, LET ME KNOW! Prep is everything people!! 

When I mention to someone that I'm training for a marathon they first ask how far that is, and second they say, "OMG that's crazy, how do you motivate yourself to run that far?"... I usually don't think into it to much, until now. 
I realized I don't really have motivation to run that far. I'm not competitive by any means so signing up for something and needing to accomplish it isn't really a "motivating" factor and I'm not that motivated to just go out and run 26.2 miles, but i do it anyway.

​I run because I can.
I run because at the end of the day, getting a run in feels complete.
I run to feel the breeze, to taste the salty sweat running down my face, to feel my body get stronger, to take in the fresh air.
I run because it's who I am.

There is no amount of motivation that can get my ass up at the crack of dawn to eat, pack my things, and drive out to a bike path to run for 3 hours in the cold.. there has to be more to it...and there is.

At the end of the day when you go to bed you should be able to look on the mirror, exhausted, yet relaxed, and know that you did something for yourself today, you bettered yourself, you respected your body, you fed your desire to be whole and you nurtured your soul. ​

It didn't happen after my first run... or my second or third. I don't know when it happened, but one day when I woke up to run it wasn't motivation lacing up my sneakers, it was just me.

Why are we so quick to downplay our personal achievments!?...

​"You look great today"
"O, no i don't i'm a mess, this old top? This hair?"

"You can run a mile without stopping? How exciting!"
"O please, it's only one mile, i'm so slow anyway, i barely make it to the end."

​Why can't we just be happy for ourselves and accept compliments, acknowledge our accomplishments, and promote ourselves as the bad ass achievers we are?!

Do we celebrate only the big birthdays...30,40, 50 etc. Or do we celebrate every birthday in between?? There will always be someone who runs faster, lifts heavier, dresses nicer... but there will never be another you. YOU accomplishing your first mile or YOU rocking a badass outfit will never be something someone else can take away.

​Once we start acknowledging our accomplishments, whether it be at the gym, at work or in our social life, we will be able to really break away from what holds us back and continue to accomplish. Each time bigger and better things will be done and the positive energy and encouragement that we begin to accept along the way will only fuel our success even more. 

Rumor has it I have cellulite on my legs. Most people do. Some people have a lot. Some a little. I have yet to meet anyone with none. What people don't seem to realize is fat is not a bad thing! Male or female, fat fills us out, gives us curves,insulates us, and give your body some personality!

People are so afraid of their own fat because:

1. ​if they accept their fat they're then admitting to having it
2. if they are in support of their fat then they look like slobs who are pro cookies for breakfast
3. if they show their fat then they "dont know how to dress for their body type"​

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While running yesterday down a busy road I thought about my fat, i thought about my legs jiggling as cars fly by. I thought about my cellulite peaking out every time i took a step, each dinple waving at oncoming traffic while hissing at me to run harder. Luckily i also thought about how much i dont give a shit what people driving by in their cars think of my fat, my cellulite, or my leg giggle. Maybe they think i need longer shorts? Maybe i should stick to less traveled side roads and tame my cellulite and it's unruly ways. MAYBE.... maybe i dont give a shit. My legs are powerful and muscular and kick serious ass. My legs carry my dimply ass through mile after mile never once judging. We need to start silencing those that bring us down... even if it is ourselves. If you notice not once did i say anyone actually told me i had fat, or mentioned my cellulite, or explained their feeling ls regarding the length of my shorts. Odds are no one ever will, why? Because im confident.

So you're trying to watch what you're eating. Keep the calories down, sugar under control. That mindset...great! The execution... not so great.

People are so afraid to actully eat good filling foods that they continue to stick with diet breads, "light" drinks, sugarless desserts, and their body ends up craving it all even more.

Breakfast is the perfect example, you want to get started on a heathy note, get your metabolism going, and feel full and satisfied for the morning. Coffee and light toast won't cut it... Above I have my vegan pancakes (don't worry they're non vegan taste approved) that i "veganized" from a martha stewart recipe! They are amazing with some crushed strawberries too!

Now according to the recipe that's 2 tbsp of sugar for 8 pancakes, roughly 3g of sugar added to each pancake. Hell yes!!!! Personally I dont believe in counting natural sugars (the bananas) so that really isn't bad at all. Just add some protein, either substitute some flour with protein powder or add something on the side and you have a filling satisfying breakfast! Obviously this one may take a little extra time and I only use as a weekend breakfast option unless it's made in advance! Any other good recipes I should know about? Comment!